Friday, September 11, 2009

Immediacy and Eternity

What surrounds me?

Comfy beds
and good friends
pretty girls
who drink til they hurl
carpeted floors
and space galore
life run by the clock
and super-white socks
that hide scars
produced by cars
like the one I drive every single day
to the place where I get paid
to feed my feeble desires
and ignoble ambitions that are better off thrown into the fire

This is what surrounds me. Ephemeral fashions, fickle passions, fleeting beauties, degradable everything, all things destructible, moth-edible, and stealable by thieves. I am saturated with longings that seldom satisfy anything except for my stomach (temporarily) and my eyes never. This is what suffocates me so subtly, yet so surely. This is the way that Satan attempts to squeeze my esophagus shut with his strong grip.

"Let your wealth be the reason for your worship.
There is no higher pleasure than what a woman can provide.
Find transcendence in the wilderness, don't look to a 'creator'."

To satan's deadly whisper in my ear, I shout back and echo the cry of John Piper: "to Hell with the Devil" as I wrench His hand off throat and cling to the promises set forth in the Word.

Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful.
Nada podra separarnos del amor de Dios
He has not destined us for wrath, but for obtaining salvation through Jesus Christ who died for us, so that whether we are awake or asleep we might live together with him.

My hope lies not in the immediate. Not in the comfortable arms of a loved one. Not in the gaze of a lady. Not in the promise made by man. Not in the assurance of a bank account. I do not rest fully in my insulated home. I do not find peace through clever adages and illumination in pithy aphorisms. I do not drink from my immediate experiences and conferences as my fountain of life.

My hope lies in the eternal son of God, Jesus Christ, my fountain and foundation. The one who is my substitute on the cursed tree, the ultimate expression of God's love. He is my savior who rescues me from this body of death. He wrenches Satan grip from my throat, and frees me from sin. It is he who then takes Satan's head and crushes it under his foot, just as the Word prophesied. He is my stronghold, my refuge, my strength.

Whom have I in heaven but you?
And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

2 comments:

  1. What the heck, Albert Chun.

    The issues you touch upon in this blog entry are the reasons why I have a difficult time sleeping these days. I actually have a draft in my blog waiting for me to finish, but you, my friend, have taken the words out of my mouth.

    SERIOUSLY. Despite all that I've "realized" in the past couple years, especially regarding my identity, where my worth comes from, where my JOY comes from.. I really feel these worldly ideals creeping up on me, and my true sinful colors are peeping through this image that I've created for myself.

    SHOOT. Your last two paragraphs.

    More than "true love" fit for the theatres..
    More than just conquering the world..
    More than respect and adoration any man can give..
    More than the riches and the comforts of this world..

    ....

    Fight on, brother Chun!!!
    Told you I'd be interested in that raisin. HAHA.

    Bit too personal for a comment, but oh well..
    Suz

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  2. AH reading this made me scared! i also felt weak and tiny knowing i'll continuously struggle with worldly pleasures til the day i die. then i was super happy & thankful looking back to the Cross :) thanks for sharing & welcome to the blogworld!

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